Don’t die growing up
A dull moan groans
In a voice lost long ago:
Life is the moment, not likes on a page
Not social mind games, labels or names
Not hypnotised by snake eyes,
in disguise.
Don’t die growing up
A dull moan groans
In a voice lost long ago:
Life is the moment, not likes on a page
Not social mind games, labels or names
Not hypnotised by snake eyes,
in disguise.
A flame burns its might
In a crystal ball
In your warm gaze
In your gentle glow
Simmering over now
Above and below
We can heal our wounds
With every caress
You lay on fire
Your heart to undress
In our arms
We find our peace
A place where we
Find our final release
A spark ignites the night
It’s in your tender touch
That I find my love,
Your comfort and trust
It’s in this moment’s flame
That we can heal again
The scar that burns.
I was lost alone in the night
Wondering where to hide
There’s no method to my madness
I was struggling in my sadness
But then I heard a voice saying
“love is here for you”
There’s someone who cares for you;
You were born not waiting to die –
Give in to the love for you.
In the deep hazy mists I could see her:
I melted away in one breath
As our eyes met within death.
Born in chains,
Fed to the grave
A one-way trip
That leads to nowhere
The sound of silence that never rests
A chest that aches
An endless quest:
You said you loved me
A hundred times you lied
Your words were lies
I gave you my love for a hundred lies
Your lips move, the truth has died.
Night calls and my mind races through
A queue of faces, all thoughts of you
They fill my head, breaking the fake heart ache
I used to have
And now I cannot escape from you
From your embrace there is nowhere to hide
Your face lives deep inside
I race from my mistake,
But every disgrace
I cannot shake away
I wonder why
Every moment I am with you
I have found some truth
But are you real or are you me?
I only see the reflection of a changing dream:
A hiding place faraway
that shines in sunlight on a summer hill
Floating up high as I’m washed away
Survival’s something I will lose anyway.
I thought you were dead
But then I saw you were still so small
And I began to slip and fall
Because I wasn’t over you
You didn’t leave
You grew and grew
Until you pulled me down
And down and down
I’m still falling down;
You give your smile so heavily
Tender, deadly, dragging me
Right down, down, down and down
I am falling down;
I found you there from despair
Hour after hour in the abyss
For a few more years
For a few more tears
As cold as stone
Sitting in the dark all alone.
If you loved, you wouldn’t cause my pain
But now I see it was all just a game to you
You wanted me to suffer for you
And now I see, the truth is in your lies
You let me in while covering my eyes
You were just another disguise
It was always about you
But that was then and now is now
I won’t let you bring me down to my knees
Now I’ll wear the crown
So hold me as I let you go,
I’m breaking free, taking back control
With open eyes we’ll find our way
We’ll leave the past and start some day
With true love,
I’ll guide us through
We’ll leave the past and find a new you.
You think you know what’s hidden in my heart?
You think you know what’s tearing me apart?
No, you don’t have clue,
I’ll always be a mystery to you:
I’m the desire burning through,
keeping you up, and down, all night
You think you know what’s on my mind,
But the thoughts I keep are of a different kind:
I’m the longing that you can’t ignore;
I’m the feeling that you can’t deny;
I’m the rhythm that makes you come alive;
I’m the spark that ignites the flame;
I’m the desire that drives you insane
You think you know what’s floating through my mind?
You think you know what’s rotting deep inside?
You think you know me, but you don’t know a thing;
I’m a mystery, a puzzle, a song without a ring
You think you own me, but I’m not your possession –
I’m my own, my one and only obsession
The truth is you’ll never know, and that’s just fine
‘Cause it’s my life, my story and I’ll keep it mine
It’s mine to keep, mine to reveal,
My mystery, my puzzle, my tale to tell.
I spy with my little eye
Something beginning with a lie:
Thick bliss with a twist,
Jealously deceiving,
Judging and sneering;
Another sadistic statistic
bleeding fear on the journey
from womb to tomb,
dreaming of decay.
Darkly you draw me,
The skulls smile and welcome me,
leaving marks in the light
hiding under the door.
Found by a gentle breeze,
deep smiles of shining beauty
bathed in slowly swirling
Shimmering infinity –
The tender beauty in your eyes,
The warm gaze of a gentle glow,
while face down in questions
talking to the wall;
chemicals fuming tentacles
across an empty sky.
Words can trick and tease,
tantalise and please…
The meaning of life is:
to live
words silenced
with a kiss
Faces, faces everywhere
But not you
Not you, anywhere.
No touch of you
No beautiful you;
Only me and the dark,
Haunted by echoes
Of a once beating heart;
Condemned to yearn
But dead to you –
A figure in the corners,
Behind shadows,
Floating out of reach.
Silence calls
the sound of nothing.
No any
No thing
No deathly
hum.
No ifs
But thank you.
You’re listening.
Wounds of the mind
cling to the familiarity of sadness.
Drip-fed addictions
waste my skin away.
My words are dead.
Life is staring at a broken screen.
The cold face of time
stalks the spinning room:
Clicks staring at the numbness,
Until they stop too.
A once delicate acorn
now shades me;
the leaves breathing
and quivering
with the sun.
Greens and browns heave
the chilled tangles of roots and limbs
and spaces hidden in between.
A warm pulse thaws
the skeletal yearning,
until frozen sighs
return, again.
Unseen,
Fear appears on the pillow
and shakes the shadows;
Casting dreams
with desperate whispers
of days that cannot be.
I am:
I feel;
I touch;
I hear;
I see.
I say
I want.
I try;
I hurt;
I fear.
I hope.
I dream.
I love.
I wonder.
I am
Love desecrates the strangeness.
We pray under crosses, owned by Man
and grovel to bosses, slaves to a plan:
Trapped in the web, of their endless lies,
to be spun from a thread
and eaten like flies.
Beneath a mountain of tedium,
In a dull ugly system,
In an empty ocean of shadows,
Is a silhouette of pure fire heat
Drifting in the dark.
All I wanted was the wind;
The wind murmured with anticipation,
The grass turned to icy grey,
A fine mist fell,
And with the mist came my sorrow
Cooling my body
With her thousand kisses,
Leaving me there.
I am surrounded by ice crystals
floating down through silence
into soft glowing snow.
The only sound is the pulse of my breathing.
As the sun sleeps,
how many hearts are dreaming,
when the world stands still.
Dead shadows dance in the night
yearning for the dawn.
Cold and forgotten walking scars,
drained by decay,
wasted by time,
stretch out,
hungered and blurred,
to a spark ignited,
climbing,
rising from the ground.
From the last depths,
rays of hope entwine in the sky,
kissing the hills;
breathing new life
and wonders layered in light.
Naked with joy, a new day, a new world is born.
My phone pleads:
“Look at me,
I can show you anything,
JUST LOOK AT ME!”
Summon with caution, a mischievous little genie
wants feeding by my stare;
To bestow wonders or destroy the world,
it doesn’t care.