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Although life always has its funny way of testing assumptions about anything, I am an enormously fortunate human being, living in a time and place where I have an opportunity to explore varied possibilities of life and to express my thoughts without a serious risk of destructive oppression and inquisition.

This blog is intended to consolidate my observations, the only real conclusion being that experience has somehow shown me what I already knew but did not understand, as written by many people before.

Throughout history we have behaved like members of ant colonies: attacking, destroying and enslaving each other, with the added horrors of sadism and sexual violence, often led by one murderous sociopath after another. History is predominately one of brutalized, traumatized, confused people living in pain and subjugation – we in turn build statues to the monstrous and watch entertainments of the butchery.

Yet young children are joyous, loving, curious, imaginative, creative, alive – everything we as adults should be. Adults generally (despite the facades) are often lost in a mix of anxiety, depression, frustration, regret, vengeance, anger, fear and self-loathing; in varying stages of struggle and confusion.

Something happens along the way that drains the joy and implants the madness. If we are aware of what that is, can we become better adults?


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Random Thoughts

I don’t think it’s an exaggeration to say that humanity will progress or fail based on the quality of information. Totalitarian regimes are the biggest abusers of the truth and the vilest perverters of humanity.

Wiberty – words in books can set you free.

“Smart” as a buzzword has become a bit corporate, so is far from its original meaning of savvy. I now prefer “hardcore”, but with nice comfy edges.

The train from Norwich to London journeys through four of England’s fifty-five cities.

I finally broke the two-minute mark for passing free-flowing water. Very proud of myself.

Journal 2022-05-21

During my wanderings, I’ve built abilities in various areas. I’m now focusing on each area in turn, starting with writing.

Random Thoughts:

From brain teasers to magic tricks, it’s usually a wrong assumption that hides the answer. Beliefs are full of assumptions, conscious and unconscious.

If you think you understand, you don’t. To think something is final, rather than part of a dynamic process, is to not begin to comprehend boundless possibilities.

I would like there to be a platform that is text-based and has character minimum limits for posts, so that content is substantial.

Those who supported habitual shams look ridiculous in the fullness of time.

Journal 2022-05-18

Mid-May and it is now the first day of the year when heating isn’t needed and my study door is open. The trees are in leaf, there is a freshness of cut grass in the air, and there are still spring flowers on green waysides. It’s this time of the year when I wouldn’t want to live anywhere else in the world.

Random Thoughts:

I write something that seems fine at the time. I read it later, groan, and make edits.

Reading to thinking to writing to speaking to writing to thinking to reading.

Cynical and low-quality public discourse in democratic countries has given succour to the autocrats of the world.

The reason that many observers thought Putin was just posturing with 200,000 troops on the Ukrainian border was they didn’t think he would be so stupid as to invade a country of 44 million people. By comparison, 2 million Nazis and Soviets invaded Poland in 1939. The soviets invaded Finland in 1939 with 750,000 troops and lost, suffering horrific casualties.

If a government (e.g. the US) had conclusive proof that aliens were visiting Earth, the information is unlikely to be disseminated for fear of panic and societal collapse. It would be suppressed, with the option to gradually acclimatise the public to that reality.

Random Thoughts

Any course of learning should be immediately available in a phone app, including school curriculum and university degree programmes.

I need to know. About everything.

I would like a feed of paragraphs from books. Drilling in expands to the chapter. It could have articles and blogs as well, but I’m mainly interested in dipping into books from groups I follow.

All people should have access to the sum total of human knowledge. Untwisted from deceivers, vested interests, and echo chambers.

Random Thoughts

Extremists fail and fall because the path requires balance.

It is inspiring that even when a person may be deeply flawed, they can still rise above all the frictions and misunderstandings of their day, to display moments of grace and greatness.

I love the tech revolution that has happened during my lifetime ❤️

Presumably the “GAMAM” tech companies don’t want to use the obvious anagram “GAMMA”, because of connotations with third-rate radioactive decay?

Random Thoughts

Generals at totalitarian rallies look like clowns.

Autocrats twist the rightful love of community into grotesque, violent delusion.

Contorted minds create hell on earth.

Non-fungible performances interest me. I’m thinking of issuing a few.

Kierkegaard’s romance with Regine Olsen would make a good dramatisation.

Ferocity and love as a combination captivates people, especially when sincere.

Journal 2022-05-07

It’s this order at the moment: Writing, Performance (Acting/Singing), Music, Art, Tech. I’m enjoying engaging in all these areas.

Viral videos and images are fun in small doses, but the drug can become addictive and unfulfilling. I prefer to read articles on news aggregator apps or Twitter, wary of the incentives and angles that people take, like a historian might be when viewing secondary sources.

TikTok is like aimlessly switching on the television and flicking channels. Instagram is an extension of reality tv. Facebook is a legacy platform, originally designed for sharing updates with friends and family, though messaging apps are probably better for this now.

YouTube is a great library of videos that should be actively searched rather than passively received, as my feed is now gunked up with spam. Twitter can be interesting to read, after filtering out the crappy posts and comments.

Random Thoughts

Invest where people who know what they are doing put their own capital. Or better still, invest in them. If you believe in what they are doing and you believe in them, then you have found the perfect combination.

Products and services improve when the providers are also keen users.

Trying to look older would mean experience is valued over the skin-deep.

Schools teach children to fit into a uniform.

Inflexibility often manifests in people who believe that whatever they think determines external reality.

Doing nothing isn’t preferable.

Random Thoughts

Notice. Are you able to describe the person you just talked to? Or the room you were just in? Or even the object in your hand? Do you notice what you are doing?

To be offended is to be wrong. Nasty behaviour thrown in your direction isn’t condoned, you might choose to respond, but why should their words actually harm you?

Many thirst in the desert of shiny things.

The accumulation effect of small moments can be enormous.

The challenge is to release what is within you, uncorrupted by falsity and lies.

Regardless of whether you think you are succeeding or failing, you must not ease up, in any respect, because events always happen.

For sure it is smart to learn from the experience of others, but the lessons can be more thoroughly learnt if you make the mistakes yourself.

Random Thoughts

I love that moment of bafflement when a person is looking at you and thinking “what the?” It usually ends in either awkward or full laughter.

If nervous or stressed about doing something, say to yourself “I’ll be dead soon” and do it anyway.

I think psychopaths don’t understand that threats have no effect on people who are truly pissed off. There is no room for fear when a person is angered, only destruction.

An empowered society creates and innovates. Empowered authoritarians corrupt and suffocate.

Random Thoughts

Work journals help elucidate what is happening and why.

An important question to ask one’s own thoughts is, “Who is talking?” Now you know, do you want to let that voice speak? A human does not have one identity, or set of impulses.

My logic reasons that I should be Agnostic, but belief in “God” is embedded in me, even though I can’t define what that word means.

Fall in love with doing. Love to do and you will have the energy to do it.

Comfort is for snoozing not moving.

Freedom provides the opportunity to create.

Curiosity initiates understanding and invention.

Random Thoughts

What do you have to say? Experience. Think and write. Then say, entertainingly.

Art happens when imagination and reality are one.

Difference has a cost and the highest return.

An algorithm, a method, is enormously powerful when perfectly applied.

I sincerely hope we are able to spread humanity rather than psychopathy onto other planets.

Journal 2022-04-09

Twitter can be an opportunity to read more.

If I write something, I can also read the text on video and include in the tweet. I could use hashtag logic such as #H1C0S1T1 to index the content of Human World – where H = Human World (Novel), C = Chapter, S = Section (Thread), T = Tweet.

Random Thoughts:

Bravery is a smile in extreme adversity. Faith is the understanding that this light will prevail.

If there is advanced alien life out there, they would probably have the technology to hide themselves from us and would probably be watching us. Whether they would want to intervene, I have no idea.

The main utility of social media platforms:

  • Twitter: Sharing written thoughts (but corrupted by psyops farms, disinformation, and political tactic mongers).
  • Instagram: Following a person’s pictures and videos (ideal for celebrity culture and stalkers).
  • TikTok: Fun videos.
  • YouTube: All videos.
  • Facebook: ? Pass.

Random Thoughts

I used to grumble about wind turbines but now I’ve changed my mind. In my mind they’ve become monuments standing tall in all weather against humanity’s primitive past. It doesn’t matter how cloudy the skies, the arms will turn.

A debate is just gladiatorial spectacle, but a discussion should be a real-time exchange of thinking, with new ideas developed together as an outcome. Written bullet points provide more time for the receiver to think through the issues.

For me at least, the television has been replaced for news and entertainment by phone apps. The zombification factor is lower if there is more interaction and dynamic content.

Anyone who likes me has excellent taste.

Random Thoughts

I don’t mind monotonous chores when listening to podcasts or audiobooks. I press pause when I need to think about what I’m doing.

Nazism was obviously an evil period of German history, and after its utter defeat, one for which subsequent generations in Germany completely rejected. Whether the scales will fall suddenly from the eyes of people living in Fascist Russia, I don’t know.

I admire many Russian artists of prior periods, the list is too long to include here, but art is often a reaction to its society – where the human spirit is able to shine through the pain of its subjugation.

Fascism suffocates life under its fetid blanket of corruption and deception, producing only missiles and murderers.

To an English speaker, “Putin” sounds like “Poo tin” (a tin of poo). The pathetically unimaginative letter Z as a symbol looks like a swastika and reminds of naZi. Invading a sovereign country with tanks, murderers and rapists reminds the free world of the barbarity we thought had long disappeared from Europe.

Ireland speaks English, but if they want to dump it and speak only Irish, then good for them. If they don’t, then good for them too. But the thing about sovereign countries is that such decisions are up to the people who live there.

Being consigned to the poo tin of history means being forgotten about with great relief.

Soviet Union 2.0 is the crappiest sequel ever, where every word is a lie and every action is bad counterfeit copy.

I happened to walk past a couple of houses in Colchester that usually have the Union Jack flying atop a flagpole in their gardens. Both homes are now instead flying the Ukrainian flag.

Random Thoughts

It’s easy to stamp on a flower, yet some mistake this for greatness and spend their time destroying and threatening to destroy life’s creations. To the evolving world, this is deeply pathetic.

Psychopaths are psychopaths. Their admirers and enablers make them happen.

From a writing and performing perspective, professionally besuited politicians poorly deliver banal regurgitated lines, without due regard to substance, the power of metaphor, or any higher appeal to the inspirations of the human heart.

The sickly glare from the darkness is its most pernicious when pretending to be the light.

Your choice now of the inputs that influence you determines your outcomes.

Every day is a new creation.

Journal 2022-03-21

Schedule:

  1. Recite my poetry to camera.
  2. Perform podcast episodes on camera.
  3. Read Human World novel to camera.
  4. Perform my music on camera.

Random Thoughts:

I have had good quality sleep when I remember my dreams.

Fool’s gold is a mirage to the senses.

Smaug the Magnificent would covet the tacky gold gaudiness that gangsters and dictators encase themselves within.

It is a choice to see the way.

The past has passed. Now is a new time.

My allegiance is to the flourishing of life.

Random Thoughts

Dear Tech, please help end the twin abominations of disinformation and misinformation.

Input plus something equals output. Usually the inputs are easier to change.

As much as we would like to find some deeper nuance and subtlety, some people do behave like cartoonish one-dimensional characters.

Do Until Win (Pain, Learn, Adapt).

Liking yourself is a good choice.

Random Thoughts

When the fog clears you realise you are not where you were anymore.

Your love is shown in your grief; but grief will end, your love will not.

Emperors want to think they are respected. I think they are pathetic.

A country is not its government. Normal human beings do not resemble the golden-housed psychopaths that plunder and destroy their lives. But the human spirit can shine through the deceit and misery unleashed on the world. To life.

If aliens were to read the comments on Twitter, we wouldn’t be the species of choice to talk to.

Random Thoughts

Beauty in unexpected places is a special beauty.

Words can transcend the page or sink in the mud.

Dangerous and irresistible is a strange allure isn’t it…

Try to have fewer opinions. Few and deep is more helpful than many and superficial.

You don’t “work” when solving a crossword puzzle, or playing Wordle, or reading a book. Remunerated activities don’t always have to be “work” either.

Beauty (lyrics version)

Found by a gentle breeze,
deep smiles of shining beauty
bathed in slowly swirling
Shimmering infinity:

The warm gaze of a gentle glow,
The tender beauty in your eyes,
with chemicals fuming tentacles
across the astral skies.

Hiding under the door,
The tender beauty in your eyes;
Darkly as you draw me
across the astral skies.